Dreams... and Movies.

Hey again, it's a bit late now. Yeah, 1:23 AM. I don't know why I'm still up I should be swimming in my ocean of blankets. Well, there's something I'd like to talk about although, it makes me feel like I'm the only person in the world that thinks this way. Right now I'm listening to this Eminem song and it brings thoughts to my head. The song has these little sound effects in the beginning with like car brakes screeching. This song mixed with any other sad song like the Pearl Jam one about the car crash makes me visualize a scene in my head, of course nothing real. Movies are very different with me and set most of my memories. So when I'm thinking about this it looks almost exactly what a movie would show it up as. Driving on a road, I can't see anything but the car is on a highway and swerving all over at high speeds. I only created that scene, in my head all I can see is this scene: Inside the car I look to the right and just look at the person next to me, it could be anyone but I think it would be someone like a girlfriend. My eyes, looking at hers, with the camera aiming at my face expressionless, then the camera switches to her and a tear drops down from her gleaming eyes. The world outside seems it has stopped, as we come close slowly. A blinding light begins to emerge brightening rapidly and it ends. One of those endings you see normally in Movies, I don't know which movie has it or if any movie has it. There are scenes I see that you would think comes from a movie, but as far as I know, isn't yet. Maybe there is a super special film-making side to me, after taking Documentary Filmmaking, one thought was that it really isn't for me because it would be impossible to take these images from up there to the screen down there. That's enough with the sad stuff, it's always there that's true but you should never be overwhelmingly sad all the time, it's simply not worth it. I would know. Moving on to the happy images and thoughts, listening to techno easily brings it out for me. I've made my own scientist discovery and believe techno's happy, charming, wonderful beats, probably bring an excess of endorphins and give me a natural high, which I savor. There are so many scenes that could be thought of from my little mind right now. It all has to do with something like a girlfriend. Although, there really was never one for me, and, in a pessimistic view, probably never one. But with this music and the endless boundaries of my mind, those thoughts do occupy my mind. My favorite techno songs are the ones with the vocals, whoever sings some of these songs, really needs a special congrats because it's amazing. Here's two songs that I like alot, Keira Green - My heart goes up; and Candee Jay - If I were you. The happy vibe in the first song is one that's appreciated, here are some lyrics, "When I close my eyes and hear your voice my heart goes up to 10. Then I realize that you made a choice for me and your friend. When I'm alone I play this song I hope that you can see I get up and I just sing along and I wish that you were always here with me" The music in the background brings an image that truly reminds me that I'm at a carinval. The other song is great too, the music and the lyrics mean alot to me, "If I were you I would never let me go if I were you I would always love me so if I were you..." There's more but this is the chorus and it sounds amazing :). The images that come up are all sweet ones. They all seem to be placed in the summer at the beach from Sitting down and eating with her always smiling, it makes me happy to know that. The first meeting or encounter comes up with things like, she's smiling so am I and we just look at each other and magnetize instantly. Walking on the beach... talking, playing in the sand, all of the super soft things girls would love that I have but wouldn't wanna mention here :p. I believe if you want to be happy with a girl you should have a more feminine side because the girls are the ones that keep the love. If your like all masculine you just want the girl once in a while, but feeling the same way they do and both of them wanting each other forever, that makes me really happy, especially to see it in life. Looking at old people still having the same feelings they did when they met years and years ago, looking at that and knowing it is possible always excites me but I've got a problem that most people well, yeah its just I'm shy. I know some girls would want to talk to me and I've let it go a few times thanks to my shyness and who knows, it could have been something else. Something I've been dreaming of... those images, everything, but it all would be unreal. For the sake of me please learn not to be shy, in life, you can't wait your whole life. Hopefully I get what is wanted but some people don't and that's the end of their story. Sad but true, the last thing I would want is for you to have it wait and never happen. "Celebrate the summer, dive into the sea, celebrate the feeling, you and me take me to the ocean living life so prime take me to the hot summer dream..." The end is here @ 2:10 AM, heh. I want you to know your really special. Thanks for everything. Live life like everyday is your last day, thing's will get interesting, different, and fun. Oh here's another quote I like to use that would go with the sad part of this blog. Never say goodbye to anyone, say I'll talk to you later, it sort of presents a feeling that I won't see you again feeling. Especially if something freaky like they die the next day, no one knows when they will die so just hope it's for a while. I love you, good night.