Ramblings

The beginning of a new month, April. Next month I turn 17 and I don't have my license. It's embarassing sometimes but it's not really a necessity for me. I hope a lot of fun is coming up for us all in the next few months. I've got so much homework thanks to that gay suspension and just can't do it all. It's too hard to concentrate and work over here because everything is a distraction. Maybe I should start going to the library more to study on my own and read good books. I have the internet, thank God, for all of the information anyone may want. I like to go to websites like Wikipedia where I can read up on things that I've always wanted to know. I like considering myself an autodidact, I guess it makes me feel more special or better about myself. Although I'm not really a great example. I don't go home and read books or listen to music or anything like that. For me, it's different. I just read stuff that I want to know about instead of reading novels. I would like to read novels and be like that but, there's no routine or motivation strong enough. Laziness is really dumb, I hate that because it's hard to change over and work. I've totally given up in classes like Latin, I do absolutely nothing because I know nothing. I can't seem to have the structures and rules in my head when translating or whatever we're doing. It's easy to say you're going to want to do something until you get home and you have to test yourself to do it. I like working, I do work in other classes, errands, around the house. There is my workout routine which is great for me but after that, there's nothing. As soon as I enter the home the computer is used. From there it's just playing games or doing some small amount of homework. My problem could be with the games or the computer itself, it keeps me from working. I just remembered how the SAT's are coming up, and quick. I really need to start studying on this even though I don't want to. It's stupid how America just tests kids their whole life over and over. Public schooling is dumb, politicians think if you keep putting money in there the problem is solved. Why is it private schools spend half as much and graduate more students? These are all facts I've given before. I'll try to keep away from the computer after school and see how that affects my work. It's late and I have school for this week and then a vacation next week, awsome. Here's another quote to leave you with, "You can't ever teach anyone anything, you can only help them find it within themselves."