Utopia

"Of many thousand mortals, one, perchance,
Striveth for Truth; and of those few that strive-
Nay, and rise high- one only- here and there-
Knoweth Me, as I am, the very Truth.

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Yet soon is withered what small fruit they reap:
Those men of little minds, who worship so,
Go where they worship, passing with their gods.
But Mine come unto me! Blind are the eyes
Which deem th' Unmanifested manifest,
Not comprehending Me in my true Self!
Imperishable, viewless, undeclared,
Hidden behind my magic veil of shows,
I am not seen by all; I am not known-
Unborn and changeless- to the idle world.
But I, Arjuna! know all things which were,
And all which are, and all which are to be,
Albeit not one among them knoweth Me!

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Richer than holy fruit on Vedas growing,
Greater than gifts, better than prayer or fast,
Such wisdom is! The Yogi, this way knowing,
Comes to the Utmost Perfect Peace at last.

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I am alike for all! I know not hate,
I know not favour! What is made is Mine!
But them that worship Me with love, I love;
They are in Me, and I in them!"

Sir Edwin Arnold's translation of the Gita is the finest I've seen. The meaning behind the words strike me with awe; there's nothing greater: the pinnacle of selflessness, the ultimate realization. It's been a while since I've last written, but as I glance over my past blog posts and notice the foibles of my character development I ask, "Was that really me?" It was. Lo, it is, the story of my accumulated mental processes and insecurities intertwined with an earnest search for something I knew not what. It's the story of a second-rate intellect's journey for peace of mind. I know I've been accustomed to self-deprecation in the past, and the previous sentence may seem like another case of it, as if I've learned nothing from it all. I think it's an objective assessment of my own faculties, there's a desperate feeling within where my passion for learning desires to break free from my genetically inherited constraints. There's a deepness waiting to burst and flower forth, but it can't. I'm at least happy with having a somewhat reflective personality and feeling the impact of the meaning behind Spinoza's philosophy and the Bhagavad-Gita. Nature doesn't endow its gifts equally to all, intelligence is distributed amongst humans following the restrictions of the normal curve as heuristic evolutionary algorithms mold life according to it, moreover, my past musings are sub-par in terms of thoughtfulness, and I now find much of it disagreeable. It's unreasonable to expect myself to reach any acclaim-bearing levels of thoughtfulness at this point in time, there's much work ahead of me.

The future is wide open to possibilities. I've noticed an awfully depressing tone in my writing about how I'm going to die and so are all of everybody's descendants, yadda yadda, and how I'd love to live in an advanced civilization according to the Kardashev scale's projections but don't think there's even the slightest chance. There may just be such a chance available to us. In the coming years, it seems, technology is accelerating at such a rate that superhuman intelligence may allow for the possibility of transcending biological constraints. The "singularity" with technology will allow intelligence to far surpass ours, by billions of times ( http://www-rohan.sdsu.edu/faculty/vinge/misc/WER2.html ). It's possible we may have the ability to live much longer than we do at present. In some of my incoherent ramblings in the past I've felt like death was looming and that I had to do something before time runs out. I have an idea of what I've been wanting to write, but the ideas are only written down in a few fragments here and there. I hope to craft it into a small treatise, but until then must focus on improving my writing. The foremost constraint being the electrochemical neural activity of our brain's information processing capabilities. But that's how it's all supposed to work, you see, life is a simulation and we're all bits on a grid striving for one cosmic purpose: to uncover the hidden powers of the universe through the method of scientific discovery. Those latent powers will radically change the world as we know it in only the next few decades; and here I am striving to hop on the train of progress and maybe contribute something along the way.

It's just a ride...

And it's the coolest one of all.