"Socialism"

Halfway through my last post you see I was getting angry. We'll my brother saw what I was writing and it pissed me off to see him sitting there smiling behind my backing then laughing. I took out the word drunk before drunk friends because he saw that word, instantly. Well it seems today what my brother did is a bigger idea. Where some people are put down when they use their wonderful minds, like in my case. As if its socially unacceptable. That's the only thing I think about when I'm writing. If other people will accept of it. Like right now I have that feeling in my stotomach, my heart, my body, i don't know. If I should keep writing or just trash all of this because some kid from my school might read it and come up to me and call me a fag. What's so unacceptable about thinking? Do you all have to be the exact same? I like standing out in crowds sometimes, but that's when I act like a fool when I'm with my cousins' and it's all for fun. You can see now that I'm writing alot more, unconscienscly, blah however you spell that damn word, because my brother is asleep and I don't have to worry about what to write, as long as he doesn't see it of course. Because you know it'll be posted up all over the school the next day or something as equally as frustrating. A good example would be some of the students in my school, they write just like I do on this thing for American Studies, while at my friends house they were reading it and thinking wow this kid is so weird just look at how much he writes. I was thinking the same too but whatever, let him do whatever he wants, anyway he's probably writing all of that to suck up to the teacher or someting like that. It's not hard to write a whole page of things but when it's not "normal" you can easily tell they have too much time for writing. The thing is the same people like... Tupac, famous mathematicians, philosophers, all of them, they all had diaries of some sort even just to scribble something down. I personally believe there's a way, a cookbook to raising a genius. I've read alot about what the past geniuses have done while growing up and between all of them the methods they used to learn things were basically the same. They all had diaries with reflections and such hard thinkings, especially the one with tupac, he wrote alot, he was a genius he really was as is many other people. All you need to do is use your brain, write more, reflect more, philosophy, learn as MUCh as you can because what is life without knowledge? The measurement of genius I think has a direct relation with the amount of neurons in your mind, if you see my profile you'll see my little comment about it. Yeah so, there was this one story about Mr Einstein, these doctors had his brain without their parents permission and studied to figure out how this guy was so damn smart. Well he saw that Albert there had an enormous amount of neurons in his brain, its weird to think about it. Since I still don't know how God got around to the idea of being able and where to store and recall memories, facts, etc. Wow Look at the time... I've been writing for 15 minutes, haha more than enough for one day... I'll be back later!