I'm pretty sure that note of mine was a screw-up. My cousins been telling me I "jumped the gun", and I guess he's right, it's going to be awkard seeing her again. So, well that's over. My good intentions never work out like they do in the movies. Instead of being soft at first just show a hard look, apparently girls like that crap. Then show the soft side privately. It seems that keeps it lasting longer, because they like the softness as much as the toughness. Yeah, you can see I'm bad with people or just people that are special to me. Don't show weakness, how dumb. This world is full of phonies, I understand what he meant by that. He who? You know... Holden. I've been told I write the way Salinger does in the stories, I don't know if I do, but that's pretty cool if it's any true.
I'm going to read some stuff tomorrow for fun, that story Thoreau wrote about being with Nature, I forget the name it's something with a W. Then some other stuff.

Here is another entry for my ever-growing mind. Hopefully my(these) contributions to the world will be important in someway.(Yeah, right...) We'll see.