Today.

Weird day today... I woke up at 9 at my cousins house and feeling trapped, I had to get out. So I did, and headed to the beach which was 20 minutes away and walked down the whole shore untill 9:40. While walking I tried imagining something using symbolism. I was walking on a long strip of shells. So I thought of it as a timeline and each shell represented a thought I had of this somebody. I only wish there was a picture to show you because there was a lot of shells. I felt really nice and met some kind people along the shore. Old people with new found love, lonely people looking for something different, others playing with their dogs and children. A real sweet and delightful scene in such a dark world. If only I could show how I felt there. I want to be a kid again, there's nothing like it. Simple things like laughing, talking, breathing, anything, was so exciting and vivacious. Whenever I look back, there's some light in my mind that makes what I did seem so fun and amazing. I feel like that light is coming back in some way, but not without help. Afterwards, I walked to Post Road and decided I would go to the High School, to see that someone while they least expected it, to surprise her and talk or something... Running most of the way it was around 11:20 and I reached the school. Before I knew it, my phone was ringing and found out it was my dad who was wanting to know where I was to pick me up. Sucks, so I kept running not knowing where she lived but tried to guess and maybe get lucky. Well, that didn't work. If only it did... I could imagine myself in a movie like that. Just going to the door step, ringing the bell, and ask to see her. Then take my hat off and have my hair in "that way" with a little smile on my face and catch her completely by surprise. Just to see the look on her face at that moment, that would stay with me forever. That whole trip was about 15 miles. If it ever was to happen that way, I would run for as long as it takes. There's nothing better than seeing her smile, and hopefully putting that light back into my memories and self. I know I'm different, and it feels good. I've changed in a few ways for the better already, and I'd like her to know if she still thinks about me or not, Thank You...

Got a date with destiny, she's more than a girl